messenger

[quote name='Carlcaine' date='10 September 2010 - 10:40 PM' timestamp='1284176425' post='190781'] [u][b][/b][/u] I TAKE IT I WIN THEN? THIS SITE IS FUCKIN SICK WITH ITS ACTIVITY N WOT NOT PEACE OUT FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKERRRRRRRRRRRRRS [/quote] no u dont win, u pm me asking if i would lay down a few bars with u, this isnt realy a battle, otherwise there would rules , on how many bars and votes, if u want a reply ill give u one, but i like u and didnt want to insult u anymore,

cheers bud, i writ this one day at work, just come to me and couldnt get it out my head so scribbled it down in the back of my diary, glad u liked

[quote name='Clinton CASH' date='10 September 2010 - 01:02 PM' timestamp='1284141738' post='190770'] I had some things to handle. R U still slayin' 'em on here? [/quote] to be honest mate up until the last few weeks its been absolutely dead on here since christmass, glad ur back

faded dreams left a empty heart, that was the start, then i preformed self destruction like an art, ripped my world apart, spiraled into drugs and alcohol, lost all care and passion, down i falled, enjoying it laughing, but something happened , it was literaly like a click, and i woke up and realised i was being a prick, so i stand, so i stand, the fire reignights, wit the mic in my hand, i stand a better man, im ready for u world, ive lived through all ur pain and im ready for more hurt, ready to do it again, im stronger than uve ever seen, the strongest ive ever been, no longer will u see me fall no longer will i loose the dream, im tall, and im back, you all better be ready to fucking rap,

any feedback is good feedback, this peice was just a bit of freestyle, me fucking about, there wasnt much sense to the lines, just me firing out lyrics, but thanks for the comments

clinton welcome back, where u been, nice peice, glad ur back

[quote name='DudeAsInCool' date='28 August 2010 - 05:56 PM' timestamp='1283036219' post='190552'] Don't take any crap from Messenger, CarlCaine - give 'im what you got [img]http://www.beatking.com/forums/public/style_emoticons/default/cool.gif[/img] [/quote] looking at that peice it seems nasty, dont take it personaly i actualy respect u and like what uv writ, its just when u battle u have to be aggresive, i actualy held back, and deleted alot of the nastier stuff, the reason i stoped writing and took a break from writing is because it kept coming out so nasty and negative, carlcaine dont take it personaly i think ur a good writer ,i like ur rhyming, and ur alot better than anyone ive ever been challenged by on here before, so keep at it and keep posting, alot of the time on this site it feels like im the only one,

U living in a dream world this aint avatar, What the fuck u gonna achieve with those barely average bars Rarely do the savage scar, try tear me a fucking apart I dare u, u fucking farce, a knuckle don’t buckle a heart, How the fuck can u put fear into someone that wants death, How the fuck can u challenge me here ur lucky I fucking accept, Ur nothing infact ur less, so no I don’t regret, I only bleed bars so u retards can write down and recharge ur vocab, go grab ur pen and notepad, so fag, Is this living up to ur expectations of a battle, Or a demonstration of why the shit u spit is babble, My words travel from my adams apple eat ur verse like Hannibal An animal cannibal sent to kill u and eat ur rotten body, My hobby oddly , ive gotten dodgy this life has cost me, The biggest mistake wasn’t asking me to lay a verse, It was ur mother giving birth, shit it didn’t work, She didn’t deserve the disappointment, Did she Carl or mister caine, wit ur fucking silly name thinking ur spiting game, Think again, No turning back, so turn your back and aim ur crap in another direction, Accept it, ive never lost and u aint the exception, Here ends the lesson,

fuck it ill lay some down later on this its been a while but fuck it i love it lol, im off to work ill lay some down later, it will be interesting for me to see what i come up with, after this brief break from it,

nice piece, i liked the flow, im not realy writing at the moment, havent picked up a pen in over 2 months, i do love a good battle but im just not writing at the moment maybe in the future, nice work thoe keep at it

very good, i like it alot

[quote name='DudeAsInCool' date='09 July 2010 - 05:50 PM' timestamp='1278715853' post='189745'] Thanks for this. We care about all our members - I was moments away from calling Midland Police to make sure you are ok. Sorry to see our good friend Messenger go, but I'm delighted someone new is taking his place All's well that ends well. Your words were powerful - which indicates you have a talent to write and move people [/quote] thanks dude as in cool, messenger is my truthfull side, i wanna play around a bit a try some new stuff, this peice is a true reflection of my feelings at the time, but i express my feelings liricly, it might not be the last u see of messenger but i feel i cant take it much further at present, i want too try some new things, but thanks again for the concern,

i know its graphic, thanks alot for what u said, it means alot times are hard but ive seen worse, im not gonna be doing anything silly, i writ this 2 months ago when the site was down, im actualy gonna be going back to an old alias as frozen, im saying goodbye to the charecter i created, messenger, and im gonna bring back a darker charecter called frozen, there is another song which ill post tomorrow called return of frozen

GOODBYE MESSENGER, Intro, I’ve got a bottle of vodka and 7 high strength sleeping tablets mixed wit a packet of 28 parecetomels I know what I and the world wants im ready, shall I flip a coin, well this is the last message on the messengers agenda, I thank u all for hearing my pain, or putting up with it ha ha, Im sorry, I know I aint been great, But lately ive been walking round with a lot of shit on my plate, This is the face, of a broken man, I aint the same person without u holding my hand, And im going insane, and cocaine aint filling this hole Im wishing this whole mess would disappear, Im feeling distant, tears are streaming, I thought this year ide destroyed my demons, But it feels like frozens taking over me, Hes got a grasp and hes choking the sober me, I just writ a song called know lee but the truth is im a stranger, I don’t even know me, Im lonely cold and slowly slipping back into my old ways, And I still havent made it up too u for those old days, I am quite literally on the verge suicide, Death feels like my only way out, my future sight, I might just swallow these seven sleeping tablets, And tomorrow u can celebrate , theres nothing tragic Cause if I aint here then u aint hurt, No more tears, lesson learnt, Im too far gone and too far lost So this is the last song u ever gonna hear my voice Cause saitens calling me hes drawing me in, So its time for me to sing my sob storeys too him But im gon leave this world laughing, I chose to never let anyone have the chance too love me, im happy crashing, I aint crashing ive already crashed, Shattered smashed and fallen too pieces, My peace in pieces, Each week on Friday I attempt to drink myself to death for three days, And I don’t know why, im confused and my rage is building, Its like im growing backwords I was never this bad, I miss dad, guess ill join him soon, I wish I had the answers but whats the questions, How can I be so lost with lots of blessing, The worlds in my hands and im happy to throw it back, Ive lost all control and theres no going back, Im happy too implode as I watch everything ive built explode,, So join me in this fire and flames lets die together, Weve tried forever together to fix this, Im destined to end up with my wrists slit, Cause this shit has blown out of control, Now just to see my son I gotta pay two grand to some asshole, Lawyers aint cheap but my son is priceless, Im glad hes too young too digest, She wonders why when she rings me half the time she doesn’t get a answer, Fucking woman, Im too far gone and too far lost So this is the last song u ever gonna hear my voice Cause saitens calling me hes drawing me in, So its time for me to sing my sob storeys too him But im gon leave this world laughing, I chose to never let anyone have the chance too love me, im happy crashing, But if im honest, brushing the past too one side, I still want u in my life, til I die…. so just tonight As I sit an cry most nights holding this blade, Although I wanna die im not sure if this is the right way, U might say the knife makes the pain fade, Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh Pain is love, My sins are washing away….. Oh no…… wait its blood, The hated thug is willing to throw in the towel, I got a bottle of vodka and those sleeping pills the doctor gave me over there waiting now, Let me take a bow, the shows finialy ending, Im finialy sending my last wishes, Love is vicious but find somebody fast, I expect u already have, And maybe u both already laugh, don’t raise my son like ur mother raised u or I raised me, I know im crazy I know u hate me but just know that I truly do love u, I got lost and confused, but ull always be the best I ever had theres knowone above u, If elijahs ask don’t show him the pain I had inside me, Remember the old me , there is love an a truly great man inside me, We both know it………… And when people ask why….. Well I got weak and tired of life I wanna die im too tired too fight, Ive been fighting for twenty four years and I have nothing left to give, This breath to live is choking me im cold and wanna warm up in hell, Where I belong, Elijah im sorry I broke my promise, daddys failed, Im too far gone and too far lost So this is the last song u ever gonna hear my voice Cause saitens calling me hes drawing me in, So its time for me to sing my sob storeys too him But im gon leave this world laughing, I chose to never let anyone have the chance too love me, im happy crashing, Its rare to see a fourth verse but son ur worth it, Having u has made these twenty four years of struggle worth it, U are truly perfect, I don’t deserve you, Ur the last piece of the bright light that once was my heart, As my vision blurs and things start to go dark , U put a smile on my face, Took away my tears, Helped me forget and erase my childhood years, Ur why I struggled why I breathed, Why a nobody drug dealer, became qualified and self employed at twenty three, Im very misunderstood not a lot of people get me, And my ambition and determination scared people so they chose to resent me, Being different scares people, but be different and shine, don’t let the world destroy u or ur life learn from mine, In time you’ll find your place in life, But don’t get too comfortable, be prepared to fight, I didn’t leave this world cause I didn’t love you, I left because I did, and I wish for last time I could hug you, Son I love you. Every show has to come too an end , the liam shows over, its frozen turn, let me take a bow, I thank u all for reading,

wish i had a crystal ball to pick up, and take back the last 8 years, all the hate and wasted tears, im gonna put my heart on to this verse see if u can get it working, cause in the last year and a half all its seen is hurting so its stoped beating, ive stoped speaking im closed off and trapt in pain i wish i could gain a choke hold or control of this frame of mind, its strange im blind but was always so sure, started of with a dream that was so pure, so as i go fourth to the unknown, i know my biggest misstake was too leave home, but i didnt know the consequences of my actions, didnt think it through, didnt see that actions have reactions, and ive hurt her too much, she had anough, all she wants is me too colect the last of my stuff and dissapear, as the mist clears i realise im home alone no misses here, realise what ive done , sit in tears, cause now her new bloke raises my son, im left here the big fucking evil cunt, cam pass the cocaine and whisky if u want, fuck it i give up whats the point of living, i try to be a good man, but it seems frozen is wining,

im never gonna be the same, im tainted from this game, im hated cause i came up from the gutter, no one loves ya yet still im great, still i make money but ,money dont make me, sucess from nothing made me, so lately the craziness is kicking in,

welcome to my horror show, tomorrows tomorrow and ive wollowed in sorrow for too long so fuck it go, hate me or love me im gonna roll up to ur face and spit this shit til u can taste my venon and then im gon demonstrate why the last twenty five years has made me this way, missplaced a dissgrace who missplaces his hate on his kids inocent face, and destroyed anyone who attemted to love him, closed himself off from the world and now hes alone fuck him, and nothing can change me back, mr stone cold until he makes his rap, so feed me some hate so that i can generate this crap, dont hesitate just give it please, its the reason im living why im willing to breath, no fullfilling my dreams, there tossed aside, as i crossed the line and lost my pride, so the loss is mine, but how can someone who loves nothing care, heres my chest with a heart shape hole theres nothing here,

cheers for the feedback, yeah i see what u mean, im gonna edit it, i did delete some thing out of verse 2 and 3 as i final drafted it, ill edit some more tomorrow, have another gander then,

im proud of this peice, but always appreciate feedback negative or positive

intro theres two sorts of people in this world, people that talk about doing something, and people that actualy do something, repeated x2 alot of people think that they all know lee, well let me just say that u dont know me, but u will in these lines, u might think u know but will know in time, verse 1 alot of people think that they all know lee, let me just say u bitches dont know me, i do do drugs but i dont hit women, most of my friends thugs but i give up drug dealing, i do have a bit of nasty streak, but these days my thugs handle, i dont have to speak, i do drink too much, if u see me out i may try to speak but im usualy too fuckt yeah me and my brother are stuck like magnets, all i gotta do is point and u will have it, and most of the bitches want with us, but most of u nasty bitches, fucking vicious, we only want queens by our side, so yawl can crawl up ur own ass an die, and no liam aint addicted to coke, i just love the taste of ocasional blood down my throat, ha ha and no liam dont do crime, u might think u know but will know in time, and yes i still claim to be the illest in rhyme, im lairy, and yes i still got ur name on my kill list kerrie, yes i still roll with wayne josh luke and cam, luke still always pukes and cams still never got his dick in his pants, and yes im still hated by most, butu enjoy ur hate while im making these notes, repeated x 2 alot of people think that they all know lee, well let me just say that u dont know me, but u will in these lines, u might think u know but will know in time, verse 2 u will read these ryhmes i doubt ull show me love, we all make misstakes and i dont hold a grudge, i dont hold clubs i only deal in aces, u can see the streets on are faces, i know who betrayed me, i aint forgot, michael marks i know u named me, u getting droped, and who glassed u, u didnt know, i was stood there watching, left it too my bro, and it was me and dean that took that stash, turned it over in one week and cooked the cash, i know who made the call for the black truck, but i enjoyed the ride without my back up, i know whos snitching i know whos waiting, i know u wishing but still im staying, the games u playing, u bitches queer, the only game we play is making u dissapear, repeated x 2 alot of people think that they all know lee, well let me just say that u dont know me, but u will in these lines, u might think u know but will know in time, verse 3 almost twenty five ands it a miracle im still alive, but i ducked and dived, and im fucking loving life, trust is nice but its a weakness, my nights are sleepless, my dreams are freezing, sometimes im speachless seeings believing, and when i leave this world im leaving guilt free, with a bank acount full and a family round me, so do u now know lee, i could write a part 2 if ur not sure see, i can spit some more info, drag up the past, the untouchable is back, bitches shut ur fucking traps, repeated x 2 alot of people think that they all know lee, well let me just say that u dont know me, but u will in these lines, u might think u know but will know in time, outro you think i dont know, im taking names, allday everyday, so many people talking havent u people got anything better to do with ur lifes, i can drop lines all day, turn all ur skeletons into songs, just cause im quiet dont mean i aint here, im in the shadows moving chess pieces, remember that,

im baving in the sins of twenty four years, lord cant save him and theres plenty more tears, god sent me this fear, its made me strong, death draws near but ill make it wait if i want, fuck clutching the mic im gonna engulf it in flames no hesitation, my career needs some elavation, just give me a word, ill give u a demonstration, my deliberation is delivered through each verse, devoure cowards fast within each paragraph im giving u hurt, WOW, yeah, i leave emcees in a state of denial, i hearde ur songs and there making me smile, yeah, im leaking out like a period, u gotta see blood before u can take me serious, ha ha and im bleeding on this microphone, i will win any fight and i fight alone, i disslike ur tone, wind ur neck in, hold on 1 sec let me find my weapon, my minds an exception, all it does is think of ryhmes and rap, fueled by agression, my verses move through u like electrical shock, expect it not but im never gon stop,

im sorry son but dads a horrible one, ive lost my passion, and keep crashing, uset to have heart and ambition life gets hard and i start sliping, ive been wishing i could go back, change the last 4 years, make right by your mother show her i love her, no more tears, just being loved is the greatest gift in the world, but u cant always see it, hate makes ur vision get blured, an blurry, so world hurry im ready, my shoulders are too heavy and its a struggle to keep me steady, ahead of me is change, and i know from me it sounds strange, but i can see the error of my ways, the terror that ive made, the devil thats inside of me hiding, its time we find him, life is like a constant lesson, and im constsntly quessing, i wish i could fix this broken picture, open my heart and show u im diffrent, i was raised in the darkness remain in the darkness, i need to step out and leave my pain in the darkness, u can see my pain, just look in my eyes, just look inside and youll see i cry, but im too closed off to show any emotions, so let me just hold them, lock them within this page, wit my pen ive froze them, this is the path ive chosen, but its a lonely road, i droped it all, but if i would only hold, but this worlds changed me, i hold so much agression an rage at the way its raised me, and i shouldnt its blaim free, sometimes shit happens and shit happened to me, ur the only one thats ever loved me, the only love ive ever seen but ive never been able to see it, and when i call my son crys, dad please come home, i hang up and cry and i know i should run home, it breaks my heart and i hate that were apart, but all i see is hate so i stay here in the dark, life is like a constant lesson, and im constsntly quessing, i wish i could fix this broken picture, open my heart and show u im diffrent, i was raised in the darkness remain in the darkness, i need to step out and leave my pain in the darkness, ive learned my lessons, had too learn them too young, i burned the best ones still burning im too numb, so if i was u run in the opposite direction, cause im never gonna be able to give u the right affections ur expecting, or deserve, ur lesson is im cursed, agression is all i have and i dont expect im getting worse, see at first, i thought it was a phase, i thought it was just rage, but as age creeps up, i can see these streets touched me, there my home now and they love me, elijah im sorry, but one day im gonna show u why, i know u miss me i miss u too i know u cry, but im out here fighting so u dont have too, im the luckiest man in the world just to have u, im building this empire making it ready for u, so the same childhood that fuckt me up wont be seen by u, all i need is u, ur my heart, and why i breath, u dont understand why i leave, it wasnt an easy decission, but just know i love u, ur the reason im living, life is like a constant lesson, and im constsntly quessing, i wish i could fix this broken picture, open my heart and show im diffrent, i was raised in the darkness remain in the darkness, i need to step out and leave my pain in the darkness,

i freestyled this in my head couldnt quite write as fast as i was thinking, but the perfomce of this is much better than just reading it, what i do vocally with this peice realy does make it very good, i dont play games, im takking names, as im taking aim, alot of people fronting but they aint game, so im hunting, u aint safe im holding a bloody sword, to persuade u too love me more, drug u whores with the date rape pills i just scored, kill cause im bored so kill more but still im bored knuckles are real soure, the sickest to ever spit it, killing u ill spiting midgets hitting triple digits, criple u little thickle bitches, pass my cell phone, call hell tell them im home, yell alone as i lunghe in, unhinged and one thing u underestimate, im blessed wit hate, patient and yes will wait, revenge ? i love waiting, pretend to be ur friend and then end u by suffocation, i suffer from obbsessive compulsive dissorder, aggressive, impulsive, and will slaughter ur daughter, for no reason, so u aughta walk her as i stalk her or order her to stay in, im in the the bushes wit a fake grin, lurking waiting, learned it from saiten, im sicker than hitler they aint a quicker riddler or sicker spitter, and this is a simpler form of phsycology, as i try to abolish the unpolished me, honestly my insanity isnt that bad its me, mr fuck you, walking tragedy is savagely showing why im the graetest, so fuck you, hate this,

i wish i could rewrite history and turn it into fiction, words, rebuild the bridges, but which one first, ive destroyed so many, sometimes two a verse, i threw the hurt, back at those that dont desevre it, for no purpose, so blinded, so much rage, and i couldnt always keep it confided in a page, ive made misstakes, im sorry, i aint perfect, seen more of hide than jekell and didnt deserve it, but u see when im jekeell i get fucked over, an if i stayed hide i dont need to look over my shoulder, i still cant stay sober, im still feeling colder, sometimes it dosnt seem real, that were realy over, maybe this verse is clowsher, i spent my whole life hating graham and then became him, love and hate is the same thing, but im thankfull for everything, i regret nothing, and acept everything thats coming, i aint running, the lost words of a defeated fighter, another lost verse from a bleeding writer,

the greatest at spiting, hated and hitten, but i made it u pigeons, waited and listened, made it my mission, to make my vision, reality, my way of living, and now we smiling while buying willy nilly, my acount balance is silly realy, but i aint modest, i broke my back before i got this, and to be honest, i dont give a flying fuck, so try and stop, this money making demonstration, but this aint a rap im a whole new generation, i generate hating, sat in the chair because the thrown was left vacant, im the real thing, and if u bitches was wondering, im still king,