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destroyed but rebuilt, tug of war wit the guilt, but my will it wont wilt, and my skill it wont tilt,
if you feel what ive felt, took the hand i was dealt, understand but cant help, be a man as you melt,
and slip into the path of self destruction, implode. destroy yourself til your left with nothing,
self suffering and self loathing sniifing the white devil for self coping. in hell hoping to claw my way out,
wake in the morning, laid out in a pool of vommit blood and vodka ached up,
hoping i wouldnt wake up..... but i awoke, continue to slope, continue to sniff coke to cope,
you fucking joke....
pick your self up get up you fucking quiter. you call yourself a savage spitter but you cant even kick the liquer.
hated your father from birth look in the mirror see that figure...? ITS HIM BUT WORSE,
you think you hurt deserves a marching band,
on your feet you fucking coward be a man,
stop excusing your weakness, look at elijahs eyes as he crys now try to tell me that he needs this,
deserves this, your times over your childhood is gone,
stolen from you but to now steal it from your son is wrong,
but i dont belong, its like i hold on, but im barely here,
disstant, exsist but dissapear, im at war with myself in a war in my mind,
try to walk the right path but on the wrong one walking blind,

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