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[size="3"][i]Cancer drains your life away,
Your frail and bed ridden , I just wish u could fight today,
The best friend of mine, at 79 you’ve treated me like a son,
Always treated me as number 1,
We begun as a odd couple, but are life’s fitted,
I’ve had u for only 5 years but I feel truly gifted,
What hurts me the most is I feel useless,
I’m watching u die before my eyes and I don’t wanna accept the truth yet,
Everyday I finish work then come to see u, and I know that one day soon I’m gonna walk in and find u dead,
I sit u up in you’re bed and help u take medicine but u can barely swallow, u choke
I’m hollow and I hope I can keep coping, keep smiling and wearing this brave fake face for u,
I know you’re dieing, but I’m trying, lying to myself aswell,
I just wish I could make u well,
And you’re embarrassed that u cant make the toilet , I don’t care,
I change you’re bed sheets and your underwear, it means nothing I love u,
I have seen a lot this life has made me wise,
And now I’m watching my best friend die,
So I cry as I write, words u will never see,
But at least u seen me become all that u wanted me to be,
And I wouldn’t of became a man without u,
U kept the foot up my ass,
I smile as I look over the photos from are past, so many good memories,
Ill hold forever, wait at the gates well soon be together again,
I hate that your in pain I hate that your suffering bed ridden cant eat or drink nothing,
The doctor said your body’s closing down, this is the final stages,
So I guess the terrible two rests in these pages,
I’m sorry Arnie I feel weak, I’m struggling to put on this brave face for u,
every time I enter your room I can smell death, it sounds strange but I know,
I dread the smell, I dread the thought of finding u dead
But I guess this is a small burden to bear, I wish I could bear the cancer for u,
Ur so disorientated so confused I can barely get any sense from u,
But when u see me u smile, I know I’m the only one u want by your side,
And I’m sorry that I am the only one by your side, tonight when I forced fed u your meds,
For a brief moment u looked at me like u had snapped out of it and were your old self, u looked at me in the eyes and we both shared the look, it only lasted for seconds but in that one look it was goodbye, thank you, I love you, I know what’s coming, a tear fell from both of our eyes, but I try to wait until I leave til I cry,
I will live my life now for u,
I will miss u,
I love u,
U are my strength,
My wings,
I hope u pass asleep in peace, not in pain,
Ill see u in heaven,
and im here by your side til the end,
goodbye my best friend,

Arnie johan cornelisson, the greatest man ive ever known , [/i][/size]

i know theres not much rhyming, but its not about that, just some words i needed to release, makes my shoulders feel lighter, my way to vent

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arnie passed away peacefully in his sleep at 130 am this morning aged 79, he was a true friend and a father to me, he will be missed. and remembered as a great man. i fullfilled my promise and was with him til his last breath.

rest in peace, alus sal rek kom,

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[quote name='messenger' date='15 October 2010 - 04:30 PM' timestamp='1287185453' post='191220']
arnie passed away peacefully in his sleep at 130 am this morning aged 79, he was a true friend and a father to me, he will be missed. and remembered as a great man. i fullfilled my promise and was with him til his last breath.

rest in peace, alus sal rek kom,
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