sitting in the darkness

[messenger]

im sorry son
but dads a horrible one,
ive lost my passion, and keep crashing,
uset to have heart and ambition
life gets hard and i start sliping,
ive been wishing i could go back, change the last 4 years,
make right by your mother show her i love her, no more tears,
just being loved is the greatest gift in the world,
but u cant always see it, hate makes ur vision get blured, an blurry,
so world hurry im ready, my shoulders are too heavy and its a struggle to keep me steady,
ahead of me is change,
and i know from me it sounds strange, but i can see the error of my ways,
the terror that ive made, the devil thats inside of me hiding,
its time we find him,

life is like a constant lesson,
and im constsntly quessing,
i wish i could fix this broken picture,
open my heart and show u im diffrent,
i was raised in the darkness remain in the darkness,
i need to step out and leave my pain in the darkness,

u can see my pain, just look in my eyes,
just look inside and youll see i cry,
but im too closed off to show any emotions,
so let me just hold them, lock them within this page, wit my pen ive froze them,
this is the path ive chosen, but its a lonely road,
i droped it all, but if i would only hold,
but this worlds changed me,
i hold so much agression an rage at the way its raised me,
and i shouldnt its blaim free,
sometimes shit happens and shit happened to me,
ur the only one thats ever loved me, the only love ive ever seen
but ive never been able to see it,
and when i call my son crys, dad please come home,
i hang up and cry and i know i should run home,
it breaks my heart and i hate that were apart,
but all i see is hate so i stay here in the dark,

life is like a constant lesson,
and im constsntly quessing,
i wish i could fix this broken picture,
open my heart and show u im diffrent,
i was raised in the darkness remain in the darkness,
i need to step out and leave my pain in the darkness,

ive learned my lessons, had too learn them too young,
i burned the best ones still burning im too numb,
so if i was u run in the opposite direction,
cause im never gonna be able to give u the right affections ur expecting, or deserve,
ur lesson is im cursed, agression is all i have and i dont expect im getting worse,
see at first, i thought it was a phase, i thought it was just rage,
but as age creeps up, i can see these streets touched me,
there my home now and they love me,
elijah im sorry, but one day im gonna show u why,
i know u miss me i miss u too i know u cry,
but im out here fighting so u dont have too,
im the luckiest man in the world just to have u,
im building this empire making it ready for u,
so the same childhood that fuckt me up wont be seen by u,
all i need is u, ur my heart, and why i breath,
u dont understand why i leave, it wasnt an easy decission,
but just know i love u, ur the reason im living,

life is like a constant lesson,
and im constsntly quessing,
i wish i could fix this broken picture,
open my heart and show im diffrent,
i was raised in the darkness remain in the darkness,
i need to step out and leave my pain in the darkness,