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spent 6 years in college training as a electrician,

with qualifications i expected my life to be in a better condition,

i worked 4 jobs to fund my way through,

and by the end ide invested 10k too,

srimpt and saved to by all the tools i needed and a van,

give up everything and everyone to suceed in my plans,

my business took off for the first six months i was top of the world,

had money a beautifull son and a loving girl,

my world was perfect,

6 years of hard work and sacrifices but it was worth it,

but then the recession hit, and chewed and bit my business into shreds,

in the short space of a month i lost it all and bank acounts were in the red,

i was weak and didnt handle the situation aswell as i could,

everyone that said i would never make it i prooved wrong,

but now it felt like everyone was laughing at me but i acted strong,

tried to find a job sent out 800 cvs,

but all companys were firing not taking on employees,

all my savings were gone and i was falling into deep depression,

my relationship was falling apart, she was constantly stressing,

i dont know what i was thinking ,

but i started heavily drinking,

deeper into depression i was sinking,

you see i grew up with nothing broke,

and knowone in my family ever became someone they were all a joke,

so it was my mission in life to be someone, to do something,

and i gave everything i had into a business that resulted into nothing,

i felt like i failed myself but more importantly i failed my family,

i was so close too ending it all , suicide sadly,

i had no choice i had to go and sign on for unemployment benifits,

and i remember as i left i was crying i couldnt understand this shit,

i couldnt believe after all my hard work and comitment this is what it had come too

but i had too do it ,i had too swallow my pride and get some income for my son,

and i couldnt let them see me cry im supposet to be the strong one,

but the thing that actualy destroyed my relationship,

is the fact that i couldnt acept that i failed, i was obsesst with sucess,

blinded by it, i wanted the old liam heart back but i couldnt find it,

if i could only make u realise how hard it was too acheive what i had acheived by the age of 21,

and too have it ripped away and destroyed by something u have no control over, none,

it was soul destroying and i was broken i had fallen from the top with a hell of a drop,

i lost everything , my son my girlfriend my family my friends my respect and pride,

each day i was drinking crazy there was nothing left inside,

im only 24 but i wish i could show the horror story childhood god had already given me,

so if shattered dreams is my destiny ide rather he just gets rid of me,

u see ive seen child abuse , ive seen my mother raped, ive seen alcoholic cheating beating fathers ive seen poverty,ive seen death ive been in gangs ive dealt drugs ive used knifes carry guns u name it ive seen or done it, u hearde of hell well my lifes from it,

but i managed to brake free from all this and become a better person,

only to realsise either path for me isnt working,

so god please tell me whats next,

now u know why in most songs i write that im looking forward to death,

son i love u so much and im sorry for failing u,

wish i stayed with u, but i promise i aint gonna fail in raising u,

and im praising u as the best and beautifullest son a dad could ask for,

and its u who im getting myself back on track for,

i think any man can become sucessfull and powerfull in life,

but it takes a great man to come from the darkside into the light,

and for u there is nothing i wont do,

this life ive seen u will never go through,

the rest of my life is now devoted to you,

i know the rhymings not great, but i needed to get some shit off my mind even if it is just a little of lots of feelings ive been bottling up for a long time. i dont care if u like or disslike. this made my shoulders feel lighter just writing it.

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It's a very good piece of work and you can tell it comes from the heart. I don't know if I would recommend polishing it or not - emotionally, you have already achieved what you set out to do. I guess you could go back in polish for spellings, maybe add a better title.

In any event, you have gone through some rough times and survived with your character in tact. Over time -- all else will heal and you will strive again successfully -- and you will be a better person for having gone through it all.

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